Tuesday, May 13, 2008
phew..i almost got locked out of my own blog..cldnt rmb the pw. maybe i shld store it smwhere or tell sm1 to remind me.
anw, i really hate myself..i feel like bursting mself into millions of fragment. that way i can do many things at once and not one thing at a time..its bad enough i have to tahan the pressure of X, its mostly parental stress thats killing me. These year must be the most stressful year i have ever had..infact, i wld say the year where i actually am stressed. i wonder what i did in my past life to get this family..really sux. and worst of all, is that im at their mercy..which i really hate. ALOT!!! i just cant stop thinking what they said during march hols..if it comes true..i will really have to say byebye to everyone coz im practically non-existant. wonder what i will do then..not to mention the days to come.. and its not say i never try, ok maybe not my best, but wat they said is damn discouraging lah..some parents i have. its like being caged in a river. the cage is the only thing thats keeping me from freedom, yet is also the thing that is keeping the crocs away from me. and the crocs are like my parents, circling around, waiting for me to fail and pounce on me.
sufferring from mid-teen crisis.