Saturday, February 10, 2007
Todays your birthday, its no big wonder how easily i have forgotten. i could never remember any birthdays in our family...just roughly when. If it wasnt for sis telling me, i would have fought with you already.
Personally, i dun care if its your birthday today. Or that theres reunion dinner tomorrow night. It just means a another meal that i must show fake filialship and kindness and close relationship. To you? It just means about taking hold of the ooprtunity. bossing me around and making me say things that will be beneficial to you next time. I dun care if you cancelled your dinner tonite or that its your birthday and you must have some forgiveness. I seriously hate being the ONLY one that COULD give you the present, since things gotten to this stage, why even bother faking ur emotions and still bother giving her a present?
Go file for a divorce, i have been rooting for that decision for countless of times. You have said it so many times, what happen to your " WORD IS LAW" and " I WILL DO WHAT I SAY " phrases? I dun care about the future or the consequences about divorcing, I might even ask the Judge to send me to an orphanage, atleast it beats living with either of you and kept being reminded of the whole process. Who knows? i might even suffer...atleast in an orphanage, no relations will be attached...no one cares about me, and i can do whichever i like, rebel whenever possible, and be playful whenever i want.
The term "Mother" "Family" "Reunion" no longer holds a meaning in my dictionary, even shit does have a space in my dictionary.
Once again, i did not do anything.
How am i suppose to vent my anger while not making u all worried?