Thursday, February 08, 2007
Who cares if u make a police report? Who cares if you go and take legal actions? WHO GIVES THE BLOODY CARE IF YOUR INJURED? WHO WANNA GO TO YOUR STUPID FAMILY HELP? YOUR THE CAUSE OF IT ALL LAH! for the past 5-6 years all of us minding our own business then ur the only one who goes and scold everyone of us. You say we on TV too loud, 24/7 ur the one making the noise lah. Not one week can i get through without getting angry with you...NEITHER OF US! everytime u shout shout whole neighbourhood can hear lah! say by telling us ur giving us chance, who the hell needs ur chances? say all u want is a happy family, then let me ask u? when was the last time either of us ( other than u) make any complaints abt each other and blow the smallest things up? for the last few years, all we have ever heard is " I want ...." all u think about is what you want, you dun even give the least care for our feelings. You say you want clean house and family still got the guts to say u dun like to clean, what u expect me to do? be a maid and clean for you issit? Buzz off lah. Go and refuse treatment, drug yourself with medication, then when u ill ready tell us ur sad story of being ill and cnnt do anything, must give way to u. We tell u to go and see doctor say dun want, not say like u stupid or dumb or what u just purposely want to screw urself up and then blame everything and us? you say dunno how many times ur thyroid go under radio treatment, its failure all our fault, then dun u know it helps if u can control. Give the fucking story of u cnnt stand things, then u expect us to tolerate you issit? Everytime dad go and let way to you, u will push it and then u end up qurrelling with him. U always bias agiainst me, then when sis screw up u expect me to do everything. Say when i start school, she will be the one doing the housework to make up for the housework i did for her during her A's, then now? i ended up having more things to do. Sis prob is equal to two times my prob? issit my fault that YOU make it so impossible for anyone to tell you something? sometimes i just wonder if i should just fuck u up down. make me the middle man, thn what u expect me to do? all the things u hate doing always ended up with ME to do! who the hell says the smallest in the family always gets the good stuff? you go and occasionally do housework then say its an occasion, must give more way to you. Dun you know we also got a limit, day in day out its always abt you, do that small little bit of stuff for us then say u care for us alot,everytime open mouth is what you want, what we must do for you, we must listen to you, you matter most, ur our mother so ur word is law.
TODAY u go and tell me to keep the newspaper properly for what, not say i put one. once i help, nvm. But u know how many times redi not? U angry with sis, ended up scolding and whacking me. TV also dunno how to on still say we rotten pigs who screw our studies up. Water so near to you just reach your hand and take dun want, u prefer to scream for us in our rooms, make urself angry just so we could walk all the way to your room, while ur lying on your bed, under the blanket, watching korean dramas and serve you. EVEN THE VCR ALSO DUNNO HOW TO ON...CAN SCOLD US USELESS GOOD-FOR-NOTHING BUMS!
you say must learn to put our stuff preperly, want to find easy. YOU? want to watch expect us to walk from our rooms, abandon our studies, on the VCR find ur CD, and play it for you. sometimes even expect us to rewind all the way so that u can see a funny part then forward till the exact spot where u last stop. Then if cnnt find the CD or part, u bloody fucking scold us. Every time say must iron our clothes the night before and dun rush in the morning, what happens every morning then? You scream the hell out of us, to find YOUR CLOTHES and expect us to iron for you, making me somtimes so late despite MY CONSTANT REMINDERS!!! you damn bloody smart rite? everything ask us keep, then anything cnnt find, our fault. SCREW YOU!
YOU! ALL BECAUSE OF YOU! i always screw up my tests, you make the phrase "home sweet home" so far away because of you, ever since it happen, my grades have been deproving...sometimes i just feel slight elation when u screw urself up, when ur sick, when ur angry.
all these things...i have yet to say to you...
shld i do it or not?