Monday, October 23, 2006
I no longer feel any thing more than just mere aqquaintances. Perhaps maybe a relationship where i suffer and do all the hardwork in silence and you provide me a living like in the movies, but highly unlikely. I have no idea why i last time refused to let u both divorce and sat there in the taxi refusing to leave. It was silly.
Its like they say, the four world war will destroy the Earth. But i can feel in my bones that the next round will be worse. If just three quarrells and i was just one decision away from thrashing my parents, i can feel that by next year, 1) I will leave the house and stay in an orphange. 2)Kill my parents and go to boys home. 3)Kill myself and live this world which i highly hope nt.
I seriously hate to see how extreme i can go, might even surprise me...