Friday, June 30, 2006
sigh dunno why everything went wrong for me today.
First, chinese lesson had to do some stupid poster on dunno wad. den bickered alot. Gd thing was that i cld bully alot, kicking stuff, frustrating ppl, and amuse myself on their frustrated look.
Next, eng had to go and do dunno what stupid brochures. I nv do, in the end have to go arnd askin, hate to do tat.Up side i sang alot. Kinda neutralise.
Then, worst of all, choir. didnt let us eat. In the end have to go choir all hungry. Then Rui Han suddenly laughed, cause someone looked funny, while controling his breath, then in the end it resulted in a loud rude spitting saliva sound thingy. Then we all laughed. But i tink Mr Kwei in bad mood, suddenly blow up and scolded us. First time i saw him so angry, said " GET OUT!!! I DUN WANNA SEE YOUR FACES, ALL GO HOME NOW, CHOIR PRACTICE HAS ENDED. I DUN WANNA TEACH U ALL ANYMORE!!!" we were all in a state of shock then went out, dunno what to do...den we moved to COE and sat there waiting for dunno wat. Then our chairman scolded us, then the tcher scolded us. Someone said he quit and not teaching us forever, but the tchers managed to cool him down and talk him out of that decision. Everyone seemed to be angry at the choir.
Den we went to eat. Realised i didnt bring money for lunch, went arnd asking for loans again. Den borrowed 4 from adeline. Went down, all the stalls no more food le. Chicken rice no more rice or porridge, Muslim noodles all the wierd wierd muslim food. Chinese rice stall left overs very little. Western food also like almost running out of food. Muslim rice also very pathetic portions of food.A whole choir, hungry and disappointed, with no food to eat. In the end i ate western food, had to wait for them to cook, long queue somemore, and pay so much on a measly portion of food. Haiz in the end left with like 8 min to eat.
* still hate life, with/without sch. Now, even more*
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
haiz, school just started not 1 week has passed and i hate it.
everyday dragged myself to school, somehow keep myself awake. then go back tired. but cannot sleep.then later at night cnnt sleep also, eyes juz cnnt close. Wierd? i have no explanation. Its like mind blank, like something i missed out and have not completed.
found no joy in coming to school anymore. its like i am suddenly being thrown into a faster pace of life all of a sudden once again. Its either me or im starting to HATE SCHOOL, no more things to look forward to and stuff. amused myself by singing today. with russell n khairul. it sounded so well, but i tink it sounded like noise to most.haha, its pure nice music ok( with a little changes by us). All the tchers seemed to like be a little more stricter. Mis Sri seemed to be more stern n not the positive self, geog tcher was just a result of having a hyper talkative childhood, mrs goh was just like rushing toking alien to me and ntg went in. Everyone seemed to be toking about IPW which i have not done a songle report since the start of the year.
Choir the audition for SYF i tink coming up. me nt going for choir during the hols seemed to be a big mistake cause i missed out alot of fun n songs. Struggling through it. Then i know im not up the mark for any of the audition pieces = me one super dead choir member. haiz all of a sudden, life seemed meaningless.
In short, im just a very sleepy boy who cant sleep now.
P.S *Life is like a tramboline, the harder you try to keep it down, the higher it will rebound.*
Sunday, June 11, 2006
First, wan yin went holidaying, then adeline, then imran...al purposely go holiday around the same period so i wld be thoroughly bored...so evil...haha day n day i get killed by boredom, but i tink i got many many lives cause wundie...haiz pure torture or blessed??? TORTURE!!! make me relive the torture day n day, again n again. Its a real killer, it shld be rank the top killer in the world and be labelled " DANGER!!! ". Haiz, somehow im the only one greatly affected by it...i thik im to prone to boredom...haiz...so here i am, spamming my own blog...
Saturday, June 10, 2006
This is pure torture...i could nv stand boredom n i tink i am cracking up again, toking to in-amnimate objects like the walls n stuff. And i hate this empty feeling in my head, nothing is going through it. Argh!
Maybe i should go out, but im juz too lazy to, den theres the problem that i would spent money like nobody's business and buy everything i like. Haiz, feel like a walking zombie, just living through day by day, nothing going through my head.
Then got world cup to cheer me up. But late night, no one online. Is either online toking n nt watching or watching n nt online. sigh sad life.Haha gonna push myself to the limits n see if i cld get through a day without sleeping. Or how many hours of sleep i get in a week. Shld be quite fun.